It's over.
Yup. Everything's over now. My college, my relationship, my teenage phase and my insecurities. First thing first, yay I've survived my diplomas and now will continue my degree which I don't know the results yet. But hey, I'm going to graduate soon and that's all matters. I was so afraid that I'm gonna repeat one of my project which means that I can't graduate and I will graduate with the juniors. Gosh. Horrified just by typing it. Alhamdulillah everything went well and I'm so grateful.

Next, my relationship. sigh. You know, a lot has happened between me and him. Remember when I used to have butterflies with him? Well now not anymore. I'll admit he's a good guy, but theres a thing that I don't like about him. He acted like a girl more than me. Is that even legal ? whos the girl ? me or him ? I can't take it anymore. We used to break up once but we get back together because I still love him but he's doing it again. I thought he changed but no. Acted so fck up and blamed it all to me for not giving him attention. True but that's because his attitude. I don't even know how to handle it anymore. So it's the best way we part away. Thankyou, next. Ehem, one more thing, a few days ago, my mum asked me if I wanted to married with one of my cousins. He's rich, yes but the difference between my age and him, BIG. I thought she's only joking but she asked me TWICE! You don't know how horrified I am. I'm not ready. I have future planned. Besides, I still watched cartoons, cried when my mum not around, unemployed and uneducated. Yes, I'm gonna have my diplomas but that's not enough! I want more and more. I want phD's scroll in my hand then I will think about marriage. I wanted to repay my mum, dad, and my siblings for everything they've done to me first. I can't let anything or anyone stop me from doing it. Okok enough about that.

Sooo, I've had my birthday a few weeks ago and I'm officially 21 this year. My gosh how time flies. No wonder my mum asked me about marriage. Soo not ready. And that's mean I'm no longer a girl. I'm a woman now. RESPECT ME! lol. My birthday just like any other days nothing special. I got a handbag*again* from my brother in law and that's pretty rare and my sister bought me a watch. I asked her to buy it for me before. lol. My mum bought me new glasses and it's cute. Thanks mom. And that's pretty sums up my birthday story. yeah. It's not much because it's the same day as my dad being warded to a heart hospital. Above all, the greatest birthday present is God still lend my dad to me. Alhamdulillah thankyou Allah for giving me this opportunities to show my dad that I will succeed in life.

Other usual things is about friend. I don't want to talk about it. Sick of it. All I know now I need to be independent and know how to say 'no' to people. After all I've done, people still think I'm bad, evil, and selfish. They misunderstand it then why do I need to be nice again? They wanted me bad then bad I will be no more miss nice-gullible-girl. *I guess*

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