Hi.
So I think I'm gonna start this from beginning. I'll introduce myself first. My name is Nor Illy Zafirah Bt Zaharin. I'm 19 years old and almost 20. I studied at UITM Machang, Kelantan. Yeah I know so far away. I'm taking Art and Design, Fine art Diploma. Now I'm in semester 3. I don't know how but I survived it anyway. I'm single as always. lol  I've been living in Johor Bahru since still a fetus until now at Taman perling. I have 3 siblings including me. My brother the first, my sister the second and me the third. Both of them are married. Brother have 2 children, sister have 1. So i'm an aunt to 3 nephews. Yep all boys. And I'll stop there about my life. I'm gonna talk why I want this blog a fresh new start.

Why I want this blog to have a fresh start is because I want to forget. Forget everything about my painful past. I thought about this alot actually and it is time for me to move on with life because I'm gonna be an adult someday and I know it's nearer and nearer. I don't want my past to be the reason why I can't be matured. So I've made a decision to forget everything. I know everytime I post something at this blog is all about my past, my oh so pity life. But it's all true. I have no one else to share with but with this blog. The reason why I keep coming back to this blog is that I can talk everything that I want to not to worry about everyone who are judgemental and criticism. I love this blog. This blog have been go through many ups and downs with me.

I hope that this website will not go down and I promise to keep this blog while I'm still alive. Another thing, if you noticed, I already deleted my latest post about a boy who I USED to like. Well, apparently he's a jerk and I'm not surprised the fact that he did not like me back. Who am I kidding right. Who would want me? I'm too stupid to realize that. Now, I have sealed my heart and no one can enter it. I don't it want actually. It hurts to be in love and I can't stand that hurtful thing. For once in my entire life, I just want to be happy and fulfill my wishlist. Is that so hard? I'm not asking to have a boyfriend or a huge house or car. I want happy. I want that happy existed in my life. I'm an emotional and sensitive person. I broke easily. Sorry if this makes you annoyed about me but who cares. Yeahh. so that's it. I have many more stories to tell but if I do it with one post it will be a looooong essay. 😆

Thank you soooooo much for this. I'm relieved that I can let it out here. I promise that I will post stories that I talked about it earlier. For now, I need to leave and here's a gif of Infinite that I miss so fucking muchhh.






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