Hi again.
I'm bored and got nothing to do so why not updating my blog. Okay before I start my story, I am so so sorry if this will make you annoying or mad or angry or pissed off or whatever. I mean no harm. You are welcome to leave my blog if you not pleased.

Okay start with my story.
I once liked this one guy. I'll name him 'sam'. He's from the same course as me. After being heartbroken by my crush that I deleted on my blog last time, I thought that time my heart will not accept anyone anymore but unfortunately they did accept this guy. So I promised to my heart that this guy will be the last guy that I'll ever had crush on and if he did not like me back, I have to let go, move on and sealed my heart to everyone. No one will ever come into my heart until the right time and I accept the deal with my heart. So I let he in. MISTAKE. Every single day I will search for him wonder what's he's up to or where I'd go and everything like that. I'm so sure that he's the one and he's still single. He just like any other guy. Not too handsome neither too ugly just so-so, kindhearted, always laughing and smiling. Perfect. In my eyes, he's special. One thing that I'm worried is he is sociable and friendly to everyone including me. But I liked him that way. So friendly with everyone.

One day, my university held a festival for sports I think. I can't remember and I heard that 'sam' are selling 'ice kacang' (malaysian dessert) at the festival. Me and my friend being a stalker searching for his stall and we found it but I told my friend I'm too shy to buy it. On the second day, I finally have the courage to buy it from him accompanied by my friend of course. I can't do it alone. He, as usually so friendly and treating me so nice. When I'm done buying, I'm so happy that I could die right there instantly. Just by talking with can make my heart jumped to the heaven. The happiness is so real I can't even describe it into words. I continue to like him more and more for a couple of months but maybe it is my fate to be this way. Once again and for the last time my heart broke into pieces.

Last day of the festival, me and my friend went to see students marching and cheering at the field and I heard that 'sam' is there selling the dessert for the student who also want watch the show and I thought why not killing two birds with one stone. After end of the festival, my other coursemates busy taking pictures for our faculty and me too, busy taking picture with others that I didn't realize 'sam' is taking picture with other girl who he close to. I saw her before with him but I just think positive and let it slide. That night, what I saw broke me so much. A picture. Him and her at that festival. I cried and of course it broke my heart a bit but I still like him. More and more. But ever since that festival, he often post his picture with her and I always saw him with her together. Almost everyday. Day by day passed and couldn't held any longer and accept my defeat with shattered heart. I distance myself from him to heal my once again broken heart.

Let him go and move on, I sealed my heart so no one could ever enter again.


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